A Bend In the Road..

My very first blog... Exciting!

A phone call from a life long friend triggered an eruption of emotion today.  I guess that's what I get for burying it for the last 12 years. While I hate the pain it is good to know I am not numb, and I have not allowed myself to become hard like some other people I know.  Just a reminder to start living rather than existing.

Which leads me to the title of this entry: it truly describes my life right now.  So much has changed in the last month, and I feel I am at a bend, or fork in the road.  It is time for me to choose which way to go.  Do I continue on the safe route; never rocking the boat just coasting along.  Or do I dare to dream.  No actually the real question here is do I dare to LIVE. Others may find this both irrational and irresponsible; I really don't care.  The fact of the matter is it is far easier to "get through" life, who wants easy? I say go out guns blazing and be who you are!  NO REGRETS!  I have spent my whole life worrying about what others will think or say.  No more!  It is time to live it up!  Take some risks, get a little crazy.  This is not a dress rehearsal, what am I waiting for?!  In the words of my man Dave Matthews **Take these chances; place them in a box until a quieter time: lights down you up and die.**  We wait for things to be safer, or better, or easier.  Tomorrow is not promised so live it up today!

I lot of you reading this (if anyone actually does) might think I am just a stupid girl; if so feel free to stop reading now!  I am not trying to be a human cliche I just want to remind myself, and everyone else how quickly it can end.  James Dean said it best, **Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.**

Okay, I think you get the point... but before I go we have to talk about one of the loves of my life: THE CUBS!  Hate on me all you want, but I have good feeling about this year!  For those of you saying **Cubs fans say that every year.** I have to words for you... DON'T HATE!  So what if Cubs fans say that every year; we are not fare weather fans... we stand by our team!  I BELIEVE, and no one is taking that away for me.  This is the year my grandma (who has been a Cub fan for over 60 years) has been waiting for...  It also helps that they have the hottest relief pitcher ever!  Say it with me now.. JEFF SAMARDZIJA!  Whew, when did it get so hot in here!  For those of you who have no idea who I am talking about please see the photo below, and check out http://samardzijapalooza.blogspot.com. 

Ok, the game is about to come on... maybe more later.  GO CUBS GO!!