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Wow, it's been a while since my last post... not sure anyone reads it anyway, but I enjoy it; that's all that matters.  I am definitely going through Samardzija with drawl now that baseball is over.  Is it Spring Training yet??  No, that is selfish of me: they deserve the break to regroup, and reconnect with theIr families.  We all deserve the chance to do that.  

A lot on my heart today; do you ever find yourself wanting more, but not knowing how to get there??  Or looking back on your life, and wondering "how in the hell did I get here?"  It's funny how life takes us for a ride sometimes.  We tell ourselves we are in control, but sometimes we simply aren't.  This is not an easy thing for most of us to deal with... many of us are control freaks, we want to have a plan, execute it, and live happily ever after.  Or something like that.  ;)  A wise woman once told me **life is what happens when you make plans.**  Only time could tell me just how right she was.  

So what does this mean; never make plans, never have dreams, it is all just a crap shoot??  NO.  I think it simply means we have to be very deliberate in making things happen.  I have a rock in my living room; it reads as follows: **Some people watch things happen, some people make things happen, some people look around, and wonder what has happened.**  Which one are you?  Which one would you like to be??  If we are being honest I am a bit of all of them..  but I desire to be the one who makes things happen!  The question now is not a new one; how do I get there from here?  

I am going to let Robert Frost share his thoughts: **Two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.**  As you might have noticed I am not much for conformity.. so I would also take the road less traveled.  Looking back on my life thus far it is safe to say I already have.  There are moments when i want to turn around, but if I did it wouldn't be MY journey.  That is the beautiful thing; we are all in this together, but no two journeys are the same.  Yet, we all have common ground; we all struggle, we all fear, we all experience pain. So why do we hate people?  Seriously?  At the end of the day we are more alike than we are different.  

On this ride called life I want to love, laugh, be crazy, and get dirty.  Some people want no part of the messiness of life; I am all for it!  No one is perfect, so why be afraid to get dirty??  Have fun, make memories, take risks... LIVE IT UP!!  There is no rewind button.  

How do we get there from here?  By doing something impulsive today.  By living life by the seat of our pants for a few minutes. Having the courage to run head long into the waves with no fear.  In the end we are where we are for a reason; we have to learn from it, grow, and move on.  Feeling sorry for myself will get me no where, and neither will sitting around being angry.  Life is too damn short for that!  Instead I shall strive to give love to everyone, and hope  I leave the world a little better than I found it.   And I intend to have a damn good time doing it!!  :)

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Why is it!!

WOW!  Sometimes people I share this earth with really bum me out...  Seriously... is it that hard to be faithful these days??  Just because things don't go the way we expect/want them to we say F it and walk away!!??  Really? When did we become such a bunch of selfish babies?  What ever happened to hanging tough no matter what?  I am sorry I just don't think it is that hard to hang in... Things aren't always going to be sunny, and beautiful, but that is no excuse for being unfaithful.  It truly breaks my heart, and I don't mind telling you it is not how I want to live my life!

On another note the Cubs are going home tonight... My heart is breaking, but I know all of their hearts are breaking even more!  I know a lot of people are going to give me shit about how it never pays to be a Cubs fan, or how they will always choke.  BLAH, BLAH, BLAH!!  I didn't care about those comments a week, or month ago, and I don't care about them now!  No, things did not go the way anyone wanted, but rather than sit here, and make excuses for them, or all out hate them; I am simply going to do what I've always done... LOVE them.  I realize at this point this is not the popular idea, but this is not a popularity contest.  People act like they didn't want to win, or something... that is stupid!  Sometimes the pressure can be a bit much.  Now for all the people that say they are professionals; they know how to handle pressure, and if they don't they shouldn't be playing.  You know what folks, would you like to trade them places??  Could you do any better with 100 years of pressure, angst, and skepticism on your shoulders??  Seriously, it is a hell of a lot easier to play a good game from your couch than it is out there on the field day after day!  Again, I am not trying to make excuses; I am just being real here.  A true fan doesn't throw a temper tantrum and walk away.  No matter how much shit people give me I am going no where!  

Guess what: love hurts like hell sometimes, it hurts, it is not easy.  We live in a world that constantly wants us to believe that love is a fairy tale, and we all will find our happily ever after.  That is not real love... real love holds people up when cancer comes screaming through the door.  Real love welcomes home their wounded soldier, and holds them through a hell most of us could never even fathom.  Real love would die for someone else.  It's a love we just don't hear or see a lot of these days.  A love the world is in desperate need of!

As I head to bed with a heavy heart I want to send my love to everyone I know in need. I know it may not fix all of the bad things you are facing, but I hope it helps.

Striving for love & faithfulness ALWAYS!

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K

Stick It

As you might have noticed from my previous posts I am a very positive person who strives daily to rise above the crap life sometimes brings me.  I am a firm believer that negative thoughts, and mindsets get you no where, and life is far too short to get sucked into them.  With all of that being said there are those times in life when all you can do is kick ass & take names!  Although it may not sound very ladylike, it is true!  When  you have tried everything to make your greatness known sometimes all that's left is to give it all you have, and show the haters exactly what you're made of!  I think at some point in our lives we are all faced with this choice; do we hang our heads, and tell ourselves that all the bull people said about us is true?? Or, do we dust ourselves off, and find the fire in our bellies??  Sometimes I think we need the pressure to feel our hearts race inside our chests.  To remember what it feels like to want something so bad!  It helps us to remember what it feels like to be alive! Remember, if everything was easy there would be no need for dreams!  I personally am I big fan of being the under dog; I think it keeps you hungry, grounded, and appreciative.

While I wrote all of that to remind myself to keep my head up in this time of adversity; I also wrote it for the boys in blue who live on the corner of Clark & Addison, and all the fans who are ready to call it quits.  No, the first two games have not looked good, but it is not over!  It is time for the 25 amazing men who make up the Chicago Cubs to go to LA, kick some ass, and take some names!!  The question is not are they capable, but rather do they believe in themselves??  I know I do!  Fellas it is time for you to go out there and play like the champions you are! If you don't believe in yourselves, and each other no one else will!! Forget all the B.S. people try to feed  you.  Let the negativity roll off your back, and go out there and play!!  Let it be fun again!!  Think less, play more... You know how to get it done, just trust yourselves!

To all the haters, get over yourselves!  It must be exhausting to spend everyday thinking you know it all!    Pretty sad if you ask me.  True fans do not know the meaning of fare weather, and they never  give up!  We are all in this together!

I personally am looking forward to a Saturday night special... Chicago style!  :)  Maybe we'll even get  to see some of  this sexiness...

Ah, that may be the hottest under dog I've ever seen!! Believe in miracles... they have changed the world!!

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Negativity breeds doubt.

The first 3 days of this week have been filled with nothing but negativity, and bad vibes.  I can say with out a doubt that kind of mindset gets you no where fast!  To some people it is a tool for their petty mind games; if they trash talk me I will automatically change me view and do it their way.  For others it is just easier to see the bad in everything rather than expound the energy to bring about change.  In my eyes both are pretty sad ways to live life.  So for those who feel their negativity, and belittling will make me the person they want me to be; I  have a rude awakening for you!  This young woman refuses to sink to your level!  You can say whatever you want about me: how I should be different, or better.  Try to fit me into that box you feel I need to be in... see what happens!  I am who I am, and I am not changing for anyone!  

For those who feel there is no reason to be positive because it all goes south anyway; I have to say I truly feel sorry for you.  I do not care what anyone tells me.. there is ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel!  Sometimes we just have to fight, and push, and stretch to our limits to see it!  I realize this is not easy, but it is far more worthwhile than giving up.  Where does that get you??  Staying stuck is not the answer.  You and your life are worth far more than that!  It is a fact that negativity breeds doubt, and doubt breeds angst, and fear.  I cannot live at that address anymore.  Sure there are times when it would be easier to give into my fears, and become content with where I am in my life.  Here's the thing, I WANT MORE for myself!!  It's time to keep pushing, and get myself there!  Time to draw strength from who i know I am.  Change starts with me not the person next to me... I pray I never forget that!!

My Cubs did not fair too well tonight, but tomorrow is a new day.  If I could tell them anything I would tell them to breathe it out, and don't make it harder than it needs to be.  They are more than capable of winning they just have to believe in themselves! And a special note to all the fans who will actually be in Wrigley tomorrow night:  GET OFF YOUR ASSES and cheer!!! I have NEVER heard Wrigley so quiet in my life!! Stop worrying about the hundred years, and the curse and all of that B.S. We are playing right now in 2008, and they need your support!!!  Stop being chicken... give them the love they need and deserve!  One of the reasons they love to play at home is because they know the fans will be there pushing them.. Hello??!!  Where were you tonight??  I was screaming louder from home!I am not trying to be bitchy here, but seriously the boys need us!!!  It is sad when the sox fans show us up.  I know it was not their best outing tonight, but they need to know you are with them right now!  What's happened is in the past; for the love of God let it go!  This is a new day, and one hell of a team.  Let them know how much you love them.  Whether you believe it or not it will make a difference.   

You all know I cannot end this post with out giving some love to my hottie!  Jeff Samardzija you were great tonight!!  For his first ever post season appearance I'd say he has a lot to be proud of.  The best is yet to come.  I can't wait!  I will leave you all with a photo of the yumminess!!  I'll check in tomorrow after the game.  Keep the positivity flowin toward Chicago!  Enjoy the hotness below... mmm mmm good!!!

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